You Have My Attention.
Let's pretend everthing is okayy.U are not going anywhere.And im gonna see u again.U are not lonely coz i will be there when u need me.I did not make u angry coz u are never angry at me.U will always laugh blissfully at my not very funny jokes.
Please dont go.Not now.I lied when i say "i hate you".
i dont hate you.why should i hate you?
waiting fer my phone to ring....
(tick-tock..tick-tock..)
The HARDEST thing to do is watch the one you love,love somebody else.--extract from this email i got from BabySis.Ha-ha.very true.*sigh*
OH NO ! i almost fergot.im werking tomorrow. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!
okayy.i need chocolate.ryte now.many2 of them.the darker,the better.wit hazelnuts.and i want to noe if he's fine.of coz he is.he is strong.
can you follow me to the "secret place".bring along some chocolates.we'll scream out loud coz no one will hear us.i'll tell u eveything dat dat u didnt noe bout me.and we could take pictures of us being silly.u can laugh and irritate me,i dont care.kick my leg as many tymes as u want.and i hope u sleep wit a smile on ur face and all ur problems will go away.do dream of Aliens. =)
2006? no im not ready.let's freeze the tyme.the future freaks me out.i wanna stay here.i dont wanna take my O-level.
Im NOT going to countdown or wad-so-eva.sorie 2006,u are so0o0o0 uninvited.
KEBABOOM !!!
dats my brain.stop thinking too much and relax,Dee.
l'amore, il Dee 12/30/2005 07:52:00 PM
melody that bleeds in me.
Bloggers,it's been forever and a day since i last update this pierceheart of mine.But then again,im juz wondering whoddehell is going to read this pathetic nonsensical entries.Greatly appreciate to the ones that have been constantly visiting this site.THANK YOU!
Been really tied up at that FastFood.Getting all the scolding from those aunties.Yes,i did learn something new everyday,but i can't stand those mouth. Uh well,trying to smile eventhough my body can't take it.
Met up with Fieza fer awhile.Always gorgeous laa she.HeHe. Juz walk around at that boring cwp. Ate ljs. Flicking starving. Sorry dat Fieza had to wait and watch me happily digging my combo1.
AlienC is being plain silly.Seriously,dat was Fieza on the phone.Her voice is not even close to a man's voice. haha. mepek sakk kau !!
If u're going,let me be the last you see. Heh.
My accessible friendster:
http://www.friendster.com/profiles/aliendee
l'amore, il Dee 12/21/2005 08:48:00 PM
a gunshot to the head of Trepidation.
i wish he could see me.see through my pierceheart.if it wasnt me who was trying so hard,then could it be him?or was he just liddat to every other gerl?was i thinking too much bout it? was he trying to tell me something dat i do not noe?
seriously,this is killing me.Im trying my best to make him smile.To make every moment the best.Okayy,so dat's not possbile.But seeing him liddat is really really making me so damnfarking worried.And i hate it.I wish i could be the one you need.To heal the pain you've been suffering in silence all along.The only cure is that farkingexpansive pills.And perhaps i can do my part by praying to God.
It's okayy if he doesnt noe wad my heart really feels fer him,but at least cure his pain.That way,everyone will be happy.I would be more than happy to see him smile.Even if he's with
OH WOAH !
speak of the devil. he's online juz as i finish this random post. BAH !
miracle does happen? nyehehehe.
l'amore, il Dee 12/15/2005 01:27:00 PM
scars and unspoken words__
some title of a song? Nahh.. juz create it by myself.Ferstly, bcuz my hand is full of blisters.Damn the pegging section of campcraft.Marvelous! Skin had started to peel off. Lyke PeelFresh drink. Eh waddehell. K no. The "unspoken words" are the words which i could never say to him.Not bcuz im spineless or wad,but there's someone in his heart. And 6yrs is fast.Too fast for YOU to leave this world.Oh well,enuff.
FARK !
OldLady is giving me the lecturing on how tired she is werking searching $$ fer us the good-for-nothing children.I hate myself. I can't be what she wants me to be. Im hopeless and best of all,i dont listen to her. And im still wondering how can i make her flying high so she would be smiling in her sleep every other dae.After what she had provided me to stay alive until this unfortunate dae. Or is it bcuz im juz too lazy and dont give a fark bout wad the things she gave a fark bout? OH PLZ! Why are these tears forming up in my short-sighted eyes!! WHY IS IT I HAVE TO WEEP LYKE A FRIGGING 5YR OLD KID SHE DOES NOT GET THAT BARBIE DOLL?!
aiight.enuff.shitness lyke dis,is in my daily sunking life.THANKS A LOT!
Maybe i should let everything out by screaming on top of my lungs at the "secret place". Yesterdae, wit Amireaux was pretty quiet.Maybe bcoz dat was our ferst tyme going out wit only me & him.I luv wen he smiles at nothing.Maybe there is something but he aint telling me.Still,i thank him fer treating me IcedLemon Tea and spending the night with a gerl lyke me.Thanx AMIR! And syukur coz Zulu parents did not give me their speech on "what tyme is it already?when are u going to come home?U're grounded", when i step my small foot in my home. FUH! Dat was close.REALLY close.They are fast asleep.
Nini has gone to overnight at a chalet with her faithful frenz.Have fun! I'm suffering here. But glad enuff dat im having the room by myself.All alone.Yeap.And eventhough you are my ferst place fer me to talk crap and probs,pinch and irritates,boys and stuffs,i do MISS YOU. Take care,KucingLover.
To the people whom i've juz chat with,sorie fer my rudeness and grumpiness.PMS dok! K maybe.Wadeva.Feeling a little sick and need LOUD music instantly to cure this hopeless soul.
Out and Gdnyte.
l'amore, il Dee 12/12/2005 08:35:00 PM
Pink is the new Black.
Met up with Mrs.Brian at Admiralty MRT.Shila and her sis was late.But dat's okayy.I panic when i saw a group of Skinheads.Was all alone waiting fer them."Juz stay away from them and mind ur own business,Dee",says a tiny voice in my head.The MRT comes,and they're off.One of them smiled at me. HUH? okayy,dat was close. I dunno why but i AM afraid.
In the MRT,the 3 of us(me,Shila,MrsBrian) was sms-ing each other.To think dat it is stopid since we're all sitting next to each other. Ahakz! Reached CityHall,and met up wit Tira. She's feeling odd coz she's wearing tudong but i tried to convince her that it is okayy so she need not worry much.People love to criticise but not knowingly they hurt other people's feeling.Or maybe they noe dat they are hurting other people's feeling.
Band in a Box.
WOAH! starting was damn freaking happening and chaos.but soon,the crowd died out.heh.well i dunno how was it after 7pm.Left the place after this amusing band perform.I juz lurve the lead singer.WHO IS THIS BAND?! asked my frens,and they were clueless.Saw Fadd didnt even talk to him.Heck cares.Tarmizi was so enthu.He was right in front while KDJ perform.I dont wish to join in the mosh,but someone pushed me.Lucky thingy my cam didnt drop.Trying to get as many pics of MrDimples fer Nini.*sheesh* Did get to talk to my partnet(who-Duh) hehe. samer2 kite pakai black long skirt yo!
kk.enuff of gig. next destination: ToWn.
met up wit Nini and Sakeena. it's been ages since i saw Sakeena and talk non-stop wit her.Aku miss kau! HaHa! Took many2 pics. They said they dont understand a shyt im talking. Maybe i talk too fast or i am talking Alien language. Or maybe it is juz the slurpee dat makes me high. She took us to the "secret place". Awesome~ Maybe going there again wit someone "secretly". Ha-Ha!
Yesterdae, can say that it is the best day of the week. Thanx u ppl who had made it possible fer me to smile in my sleep at the end of the dae. MUACKZ! been talking too much. here's the pic. Enjoy folks! =)
Dee.Nini.Sakeena. by the fountain.
MrDimple rocking the stage.Cant help but to see dat G-string hanging on Ash's mic. HaHa!
who-DUHH.Dee. @ gig.
Tira.Dee. @ toilet. =S
l'amore, il Dee 12/11/2005 12:31:00 PM
too fast.on the wrong lane
Im glad Strider was still solid eventhough the tyre puncture.DAmn.Im glad my dad give me a hand to pump it.Last min plan wit Syahmi.Besides,it's been centuries since i last ride Strider. HahA. Ride to 'jeti'. Chill there fer awhile.Gotta enjoy the ocean breeze.Luckily it did not rain.Freaky blazing hot.I sweat lyke a fat pig.
Riding up the hill,was pure disaster.Can't even change my gear.Not dat i can't but i dont noe.K wadever.Call me selengeh.Hello?! Aku dah lamer tk naik nie basikal jadi kekok sikit ahh! Lerr. Then off to buy water @ kedai mamak.Saw Lutfi playing soccer wit some MSL kids.HeHe.He recongnised me eventhough i looked so sloppy with hair everywhere.
He den decided to go WdlGarde. Of all the palces,dat place. Sheesh. Bau hancing siak dier nyer underground. Pikir free toilet pe? Nak lepas,main lepas je.Sukati jek..
Dat ikan jepon blends in the mud.Cool fish.No penyu to be spotted. Bummer.
Had a large coke @ McD.ARGH! okayy dont remind me of McD.It makes me wanna knock my head on the wall. Saw Raudhah and i thought she looked gorgeous wit dat dyed blond hair. WOAH! no matter wad,i wont dye my hair.Okayy bedek! i want naturally black wit red&pink highlighted. Woohoo! soon Dee...soon. patience pays off.
Felt so bone-weary. But was enjoyable. Hee =D
l'amore, il Dee 12/08/2005 07:26:00 PM
crazy horse performer
as recommended by my Dad. Beaver betul. But i will not take up dat job. My mom will end up at hospital,hear-attack.My siblings will juz laugh their arses off.Ha-Ha. "-_- job training sux.tiring.Felt laborious.Considering dat the place has 2 levels.Goin up and down.Hell.It's exactly the same as hsewerk. Sigh. Gez $$ is difficult to get.U gotta werk through the same routine day in and day out.I thank my Zulu parents fer the $$ that they earn from hard work. But ryte now,i wish i had a laidback job wit satisfied cash flowing in.but i gez life is unfair.and I,have to live with it. Cheyy..bual cam orang dah kerje gituk.*sheesh*
i think im NOT gonna werk there anymore.but then,i need $$.lyke NOW.many2 of $$.hig-cut chuck taylor by the end of this yr.might not be possible now. =(
after "werk"(if dats want u want to called it.it is more of 4hrs of being indon maid to me), i went to singgah to my fren's hse.i rather not mention the name,yea?siape tau tu,diam2 jek ah.Surprisingly,Sempoi and AbgSetan is dere.WAOH! ader party perr? Juz chilling to the music. woohoo! i dunno why i lyke ska music.maybe coz i can dance to it?or is it the beat? wadever.
i'll get back to you bloggers. im off to cycling. it's been ages since i last touch Strider. oh my beloved. He's all spiderwebby. and berambuk.HaHa. kk. muacks! =)
l'amore, il Dee 12/07/2005 09:44:00 PM
There's no perfect endings.
Have you ever cried,until you have breathing difficulties? It may sound silly,but i'm not kidding.Well,it's not funny when it happen to you. What if i kept quiet on the phone for a long time and you wonder why.You found out that i was dead.What would you do?
6Dec04-6Dec05. You shouldnt say dat you still love me. You shouldnt. =(
Excuse me,if posting about lovelife aint right.Cause it is more of personal things and dat it is between you & him.Screw my head tightly.I might just breakdown.Weak Dee.
Here's more photo. Enjoy,bloggers.
l'amore, il Dee 12/06/2005 04:14:00 PM
I'm not another liar.I just want to be myself
after Subuh,didnt sleep back.Iron my clothes,bath,transfer songs to mp3,drink milo(hoping to be a hero,i mean heroin) get ready lyke a hypersonic and out.Waited fer 856 but unfortunate fer me,i miss the previous bus.Fed-up so i took 911 instead.Lucky arse of mine,Ras wasnt complaining dat i was 5min or so,late.Heh.Im known fer being slow and unpunctual.Maybe dat's why they nickname me _Penyu_.Oh shuddup.
Interview @ McD goes well.Manager frenly.It's not funny dat the manager tease me saying dat i'm Ras's gf. No-No. Zirah gonna cut me in pieces.Besides,i intend to stay single fer the _meantime_.Said wed i come again.15mins earlier than the time given.i MUZ take note of _dat_ if i want them to accept me in their 'McD Family'. $$ aint a prob,but being dedicated and persistant is more important to me.Kan? Eh tak betul ke?K pape.
Had my breakfast @ McD. tunjukkan kesetiaan terhadap McD. I deliberately ate slowly. ~Time goes by....so slowly~ yeap,and dat song was playing while i ate my sausage muffin w/o egg(i swear i feel lyke puking half-way.I think my stomach aint awake yet.BTW,no egg means no ayam no mercy.) k merepek. =P
Changed my freaking black shoes to simple slippers.Buat malu company ah kasut skola aku tu. Cish! Went to CivicLib. Alone. Shld have ask Nini to come along.And my fren tegur me juz fer the sake of asking 10cent from me to call her brother.Oh dont lie! i noe u gonna call ur bf. Oi! 10cent tetap 10cent. Bayar balek eh? BTW,my fren is.. Qis. Dat becok gerl. Shh!
Mit up wit Fieza @ Bodyshop. I juz love the smell.Dont u agree? no wonder my parents bought their perfume no matter how expensive it is. Off we go to CityHall. Talk non-stop all the way.Coz we have not mit fer so0o0 long. Rindu ah beb!
Ferst,head down to Penin. Gotta check out band t-shirts.Wasnt planning on buying a new band t-shirt.I thought FFAF was the ferst and last.After much consideration dat the Aunty offer 10bucks fer TheUsed tee,i grabbed it.Woaho0~ Thanx alot,Aunty. Juz when i thought im gonna save my $. *sigh*
It rained heavily.Luckily we're under shade.skip away to Toy R' Us.I feel lyke im still a 5yr old girl.Man,i miss my childhood daes back then in Sembahwang and Wdl 406.Damn. "There's a kid in me". hehe. =D
Ate @ BK. silly me. I fergot to bring along the coupons. Dah bagi,eksyen taknak bawak.step kau byk $. Student meal is cheap. Thank God im still a student. Munch,munch,munch. Laugh. Happy atmosphere. Fieza told me dat she and her frens went to Fauzie Laily's hse. did u read dat? i purposely highlighted in red. Omigosh! I saw their pics,and i believe. Damn. I was suppose to be there too. Kay,jgn step tak tau malu ah Dee. Heh.I plead and begged fer her to send the pics. Hee. Nini muz be jealous now.Oh well,life's unfair.
Last destination= esplanade. Bought chocs.1buck. Marshmallow covered wit choc. Shared probs wit her. Grateful to have a buddy lyke her. I enjoyed myself to the fullest(except the part where i got _this_ call from u-noe-who.Damn u guys.GAL!seriously,nuthing better to do?)
:-* till we meet again Sis Fieza.
P.S: sorie due to extra long post today. gotta give my fingers credits. =)
not to worry,more pics up soon. aku nak tido.
Ayam is forgiven if he calls Penyu.
l'amore, il Dee 12/05/2005 08:23:00 PM
blazing feud
ferst thing ferst,
XXx HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY to Mr.NerdCute XXX
he shld noe the nick i juz gave him *winks*.and if i had the $$,i wld buy fer u Thursday:Full Collapse cd. i wld.but u see,my pocket is way too light,ya noe wad i mean? hehe.
very unexpectedly,AbgSetan buih me.NOT AGAIN?! dat juz piss me off. after the huge arguement between Penyu & Ayam,i became double piss off.i had my mp3 playing only Gerl vocals band.Maybe it gave me the strength to hold myself together and not breakdown.Bcoz there is no use crying over something,unless it does make u feel good.
And so,i decided to make myself a fresh cup of fruit juice.U'll see why i want to make myself a juice.
Ingredients:
1 Pear- a touch of envy and softness
1 Apple- a smack of anger and stubbornness
3 tablespoon of concentrate juice- a taste of sweetness
100ml of water- purity and sincerity
8 cubes of ice- a dash of honesty
we blend all these together. untill everything is dissolve fully,it is then ready to serve. Enjoy~ =/
Thanx Fries fer ur demo acoustic "sound". Aha! FYI,aku dengar dah masuk 3 kali non-stop. over and over again. sedap oi! buat record ahh! Burger is behind u. =)
Melissa Auf dEr Maur. idola ku ~
if Nini tells u wad she wants u to buy fer her,well i've got sumthing too. Hee. =)
if only i had the $$,i'll go hunt fer these Chucks. Damn. I need to work. Thanx Zirah fer searching a vacancy fer me at McD. i noe i Farking wanna bom Sunplaza's McD,but this tyme im desprate fer a job.it kills my boredom and fills my pocket.
here's my X'mas list:
hands up! the bat is back. am not a batman fan,but this design is way too funky.lyke garang gitu. huahaha!
Fewitt ~ k enuff said.
maaf if pic too BIG. fer easy view lah,eh? hee.
l'amore, il Dee 12/03/2005 09:12:00 PM
dat is,my
logo
.or was it trademark? ermm..i dunno. either will do.oh woah~ wad a windy day. and my hair is in a mess.Thanx to Mr.Wind. Dont look at me lyke as if i didnt comb my hair.i dont care.Im at home anyways.No outsider will see.
Mom juz got a new job.starts today.gez it will be back to DIY housewrk.I cant say im enjoying juz bcuz both parents are not in...but,uh well.i feel more independent.LIAR! i depend on my sis.she cooks,clean,scold,nag lyke Momsies will do.i think she have the potential to become a good mother.HaHa.
i cant wait fer dis Sat.going to Sista Fieza's hse. Wee~ Gonna take many2 pics. AbgSetan is coming along wit me.I dont think i mind,coz he's a useful tool.Huahahaa! Okayy,i dont really mean dat.i love it when he's around.Even my family lykes him.Aha!
im worried dat i've not start on my holiday assignment.There's a dozen of it.all pile up lyke Mount Everest.when am i going to start? I dont noe. I dont have the spirit to do it. Oh someone plz drag me and do together wit me all my holiday assignments??
l'amore, il Dee 12/01/2005 02:53:00 PM
