scars and unspoken words__
some title of a song? Nahh.. juz create it by myself.Ferstly, bcuz my hand is full of blisters.Damn the pegging section of campcraft.Marvelous! Skin had started to peel off. Lyke PeelFresh drink. Eh waddehell. K no. The "unspoken words" are the words which i could never say to him.Not bcuz im spineless or wad,but there's someone in his heart. And 6yrs is fast.Too fast for YOU to leave this world.Oh well,enuff.
FARK !
OldLady is giving me the lecturing on how tired she is werking searching $$ fer us the good-for-nothing children.I hate myself. I can't be what she wants me to be. Im hopeless and best of all,i dont listen to her. And im still wondering how can i make her flying high so she would be smiling in her sleep every other dae.After what she had provided me to stay alive until this unfortunate dae. Or is it bcuz im juz too lazy and dont give a fark bout wad the things she gave a fark bout? OH PLZ! Why are these tears forming up in my short-sighted eyes!! WHY IS IT I HAVE TO WEEP LYKE A FRIGGING 5YR OLD KID SHE DOES NOT GET THAT BARBIE DOLL?!
aiight.enuff.shitness lyke dis,is in my daily sunking life.THANKS A LOT!
Maybe i should let everything out by screaming on top of my lungs at the "secret place". Yesterdae, wit Amireaux was pretty quiet.Maybe bcoz dat was our ferst tyme going out wit only me & him.I luv wen he smiles at nothing.Maybe there is something but he aint telling me.Still,i thank him fer treating me IcedLemon Tea and spending the night with a gerl lyke me.Thanx AMIR! And syukur coz Zulu parents did not give me their speech on "what tyme is it already?when are u going to come home?U're grounded", when i step my small foot in my home. FUH! Dat was close.REALLY close.They are fast asleep.
Nini has gone to overnight at a chalet with her faithful frenz.Have fun! I'm suffering here. But glad enuff dat im having the room by myself.All alone.Yeap.And eventhough you are my ferst place fer me to talk crap and probs,pinch and irritates,boys and stuffs,i do MISS YOU. Take care,KucingLover.
To the people whom i've juz chat with,sorie fer my rudeness and grumpiness.PMS dok! K maybe.Wadeva.Feeling a little sick and need LOUD music instantly to cure this hopeless soul.
Out and Gdnyte.
l'amore, il Dee 12/12/2005 08:35:00 PM
